Lately I've really struggled with work. And yes I know, not everyone truly enjoys their work, especially not an 18 year old straight out of high school working a crappy part time job. Under the circumstances, yes I understand. But, there are days, multiple times a week where I just ride my bike home, make sure my roommates aren't there, plop on the couch and just cry and cry and cry. Then there are the days where the night before I go in, I imagine myself getting severely injured, like getting hit by a car, just so I don't have to go in.. I know it's horrible. But there are just times when the people who come in, or my boss just make me want to shove a fork in my eye because I'd rather be in the ER than there.
So recently I've been struggling with that. Trying to find ways to unwind down from a shift, and looking for a new job, things like that. But just the other day, I sat back and really thought about it. When I decided I was going to be moving to Memphis, I spent less than a week here, bringing a few smaller things down, helping my sister move into our new house, and we went out looking for a job for me. And as soon as I walked into this CiCis, the manager straight up told me, we aren't hiring. But right as I was stepping out the door, he told me it wouldn't hurt to write down my name and number. So I did, and to my surprise, he called the next day. So I LITERALLY got handed a job, with no interview, and no application. Just a name and number on a napkin.
Naturally
I thought to myself man, this has GOT to be God.
Now back to the other day. I have seriously been considering looking for a new job. I had picked up several applications, filled them all out, set aside a day that I was going to go out and turn them all in, but for some reason, I just couldn't do it. There was either something wrong with the application, or I didn't feel right. I couldn't figure out why.
Then a verse made itself abundantly clear to me:
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.*
and thats when I knew, this job, was a gift from the Lord. And he has had this plan for me longer than I have been alive. This is a learning experience for me. And I am so thankful I get to learn how to be respectful and kind to a woman I would probably neYver give respect to any other way since she is not respectful to me. And I know that sounds bad, but I'm just speaking the truth. I get to build my own character and grow spiritually, and God has had this in line for me the whole time I just couldn't open my eyes. Like he says, he has a plan, and it's not to intentionally harm me, and hurt and crush my spirit, it is to prosper me, to enlighten me, and to feed my spirit and help me grow. It is a learning opportunity, and I thankfully realized that before the lesson ended.
* Jeremiah 29:11
